Sunday, October 3, 2010

this past week

It's been about a week I believe since my last blog. That was one LONG week. It was the end of the month end of the quarter where I work and we were crazy busy all week and then all the sudden on Friday we were dead and it took forever for the end of the day to arrive. On top of that it turns out I have to have my galbladder removed because it's no longer functioning the way it should so I continue to battle the pain when it comes and goes. Tim is still looking for permanent work after leaving Israel's; he's found lots of side jobs here and there. We've found out recently that he has been approved to recieve unemployment benefits now it would just be nice to know when the deposits are going to take place. It's been nice to have him home.

The topic of my last blog has been on my mind a lot and I still don't really know what I think. Sometimes I think that he does really have a lot of the sypmoms that are associated with Asperger's Syndrome, but at the same time I know that sometimes those things can just be things that all children do. I guess what it comes down to is I'm not a doctor so I can't make the final say on his "diagnosis" so he's scheduled to see a new pediatrician toward the end of the month. At that appointment I'm going to bring up the concerns from me and my family and just go from there I guess. Of course nothing that the doctor says will change the way I love my son and I will still do everything I can to give him all the advantages that are available to him. I also hope that others in our lives will not label him as "different" if it turns out there is a diagnosis on what's been going on with him.

On another note, it's Fall now and that's my favorite time of the year. I love the cooler weather and being able to layer my clothing. I love taking the dog out at night and walking through the leaves that have fallen. I can't wait to schedule our first family trip to a pumpkin patch or orchard!

Sunday, September 26, 2010

my first child

In the past I've always enjoyed just about any type of journaling. I guess that's why I felt that it was time to start a blog. Writing thoughts down has always been the easiest outlet for me.

Ever since I became a mom to my children Trenton and Kaleb (ages 3 and 1 right now) I've known that raising them would be the most important thing I'd ever do in my life. And of course like the majority of parents out there I've always wanted to make sure that they would be given every advantage in the world. Now, we're not the richest family there is but I believe that we've done a pretty good job at making sure that all the needs of our children were met, and that they know that they are loved and also have fun and structure in there lives.

Before becoming a mom I got my fair share of experience with children by babysitting, living with my sister for a year and helping care for her children, and by working as an assistant teacher at a childcare center. When my first child, Trenton, was born and started to grow out of the baby ages I couldn't help but think that he was unlike any child I had ever dealt with before. Up until recently I usually tried to shrug that off to he's the first child that I've ever had to be with 24/7 and be the soul provider of his care. Most of the time I was able to convince myself of that but on our rough days the thought would always be there.

Within the next week we are going to start getting him tested for Asperger's Syndrome. Even writing that and knowing that I'm going to call his doctor first thing tomorrow to see what steps I have to take is a hard pill for me to swallow. There isn't a lot of information as to exactly what causes it but it's mainly attributed to genetics. In my heart I know that he's most likely been like this since he was born...but I can't help but feel like there could've been something more I could've done to prevent it. I know that's silly but as a parent it's one of the thoughts I have.

Asperger's Syndrome is a mild type of autism. It's most commonly referred to as a form of autism for smart children. It can be difficult to see in children even though they can start to exhibit the symptoms as early as age 2, this is because even though this is a neurological disorder the child is still highly functional. My son exhibits almost all of the symptoms that there are. Now that this has been brought to our attention and it's something we're willing to accept all we can do now is move forward and get him all the help that he needs.